productivity!

i'm now working on my third paper of the day!! wowie wow. it's so weird doing so many things in the span of like...six hours. i finished my development through the college years paper around 6am this morning. then at nine, i met with my partner for the stats project paper. i finished writing my part (first draft) around 11am. now i'm working on my charter schools paper. amazing how much you can get done when there's a time crunch, huh. i always knew i worked better under pressure.

speaking of pressure, my dad and i talked about what i'm going to do after school. he was telling me about the time change on my ticket home to san francisco on june 12...and i said i didn't know if i was going home on that ticket...depending on whatever job i might get. anyway, he must realize how stressed i am about finding a job. he said not to worry if i don't have a job lined up right away. it's okay to take a break!! he said that if i don't have a job lined up, we can figure out where i'll be and i can look from there. and it might be nice to travel a bit in the summer before starting anyway. that was very nice of him, but instead, i just started crying. i think the conversation underlined the fact that i don't have a job yet, rather than comforted me. i don't know...i've never been in this situation before, where i don't know what's going to happen next. the uncertainty is killing me...