departure

i didn't think it would be so hard to leave boston. i have always thought that my next city would be new york. i still think it is, and god, that's where most of MIT seems to migrate. indeed, five years is a long time, and has made quite an impression. i suppose i should take that leap. i have to. it's not even that big of a deal - i'm not making as much of a commitment as others are (people going to med school, grad school, etc.). oof. i just have knots in my stomach. i think the problem is that i never did the proper goodbyes last year...and i took it for granted that people would be staying in boston this year, and nothing would change. but it's over. the year is over, and now i am being forced to say goodbye.

i'm sad that jeff has left. everyone else is sorta in visiting distance...or i call them often. but jeff, i would say, falls in a different category. i don't talk to him on the phone as i talk to rina, who is also far away, so how will i keep in touch? perhaps via gcal. heh. he was like my go-to hang-out person this year!! i am saaaaad...what will i do now?